Wednesday, October 24, 2018

Things are shaking, bacon

I have a lot of stuff simmering on the proverbial stove right now and I'm a little overwhelmed. Considering I really burn a lot of stuff while for real cooking, I'm a little worried that me multi-tasking so many things right now is going to end badly all around. It's like my brain is refusing to acknowledge it isn't what it once was and is defiantly trying to prove otherwise. I sign up for things and start things without thinking any of it through and then later realize this is more than I can chew.


Things have to change and they are only going to change if I work at it. So there's that. Here's a few things I've got going on:

  • I'm still on the PTO of Jackson's school. I'm only the Secretary but I feel kind of lame for not signing up for as many things as I used to. I at least know in that area I'm fairly maxed out. 
  • I'm thinking about joining the PTSA at Olivia's school. I haven't said anything to Matt because I know he would give me stink eye but I feel like I have no idea what's going on at that school and with Jackson going next year I really want to have a clue. We'll see. The next meeting is tomorrow so... we'll see. I'll leave it at that. 
  • Olivia is in a LOT of dance this year. That's actually not a bad thing because it's getting me out of the house two nights a week, even if it is just me sitting alone on a bench, I'm forced to put on pants and go. I'm getting some reading done while I'm there so that's kind of nice too. 
  • I have been working a LOT on my book. I really am struggling with this because my train of thought is really over the place and I can't focus on any one thing. I start writing something and then I get an idea for something else, so I'll do that. Then I forget what I was doing in the first place and where I was trying to go with it. I have an outline kind of worked out (mostly), I have a format kind of worked out for it and I've got some things written. It feels like a scattered mess right now but I'm confident I can get it together. 
  • I've been writing articles to get ahead for my commitment to the Duluth Moms Blog. As things post there I'll share them here so you can stay up to date on that, too! 
  • I have something percolating in regards to a Weightloss Challenge. I know I mentioned this last week or the week before, but I'm trying to get my ideas down on paper and actually commit to it and then bring it to you first. I'm hoping for a November 1 start, give or take a couple of days. I really, REALLY have to get serious about this and I feel like if I go this route I'm kind of forced into it and that might be helpful for others. Stay tuned. 
  • We are battling illness in our house, everyone is a coughing, booger mess. Lucy has it coming out of her eyes, she's got an eczema flare up right now, Penelope coughs all night, Olivia and I are coughing until we can't breathe, so far the boys seem to be doing alright, thankfully. 
  • As we come into November I have a LOT of appointments coming up and I'm kind of nervous about them. I have my lists of questions and I guess I don't know what to expect. I also need to get my follow up MRI done for my liver lesion or my... I'm not sure. Something in my mid-section. I'm losing track of it all, to be honest. But I know I  needed a six month follow up to see if anything changed so that's got to happen before the end of the year. 
I guess I'm starting to feel really overwhelmed with life and I'm wondering how I ever thrived on this. I know I did because I see my old Facebook posts and read my old blogs and I'm really in awe of who I used to be. I could seemingly do it all and now I can manage getting dressed and maybe one other thing and I feel like I conquered the world. Before I was all over town, running errands, cleaning, volunteering, book reviews, my Etsy shop, and making things for the school by myself. It was nuts. I don't know, maybe it wasn't because I clearly loved it but man... it really makes me feel inadequate now, that's for sure. 


The rest of this week I'll share pictures from Boo at the Zoo (kids were adorable) and our visit to the Burch Barn in Spooner, Wisconsin (kids were adorable and hilarious). I hope you're having a good week. We're at hump day and I always feel like if we got to this point we can slide to the end of the week. This weekend is already shaping up to be bananas too, but that's alright. At least we're doing something, I suppose. Glad to be alive and all that. 

1 comment:

Julie H said...

I'm amazed at how much you do now (and before). Just being a mom is exhausting enough.